4:00 a.m.
What is this? 4 o’clock? I don’t believe it! How am I ever going to get through the day waking up like this? Is there time for a meditation tape and any possible extra sleep. Is the dawn really coming in like this so early? Don’t you remember? In Sherlock Holmes when he says it will begin to grow light after 4 a.m. in Victorian London? “Wait till after 4” he advises Watson, “When it begins to grow light.”
5:00 a.m.
Okay may as well get up. Besides, I’m supposed to record this day, if not in minutia, at least in detail. Rats. I’ve never seen that link Erica provided - Where are my pajamas anyway oh yeah, hmm. Glasses - don’t forget your glasses. Shhhh.
BD is sleeping. Yes, honey. I love you too.
5:15 a.m.
So. I am thinking about what I’m going to blog about today.
In Her Shoes is still on my mind. I’m so glad
BD liked it. It’s so durn difficult to pick a chick flick he’ll enjoy. Heck hard to pick one I’ll enjoy. What didn’t work about that movie, though? Thank goodness there aren’t so many dirty dishes I can’t fit them all in the dishwasher. Yes yes yes. I know. It’s gross. But I am a Morning Person and I don’t
Do the kitchen at night. Why suffer miseries at the end of the day when I can whip this place into shape in a twinkling at the beginning of my peak energy cycle? Who cares if the place is a pigsty anyway, since we’re the pigs. Coffee - ahhhh.
5:30 a.m.
Good. No news worth reading except that
NYT article about Netflicks - so one day there won’t be any DVD’s and it’ll all be downloads. That will suck for us rural folk who can not get high speed at any price. Well. We
could get it for about $1k a month. Yeah. Hmm. I see nobody I know died either. Every morning it’s the same routine - Open 3 web pages - Hotmail, NYT and Richmond Times - check headlines and obits. Thrill when I get blessed longed for Email from Friends - rats - there isn’t any. Where is everybody? Why doesn’t
C write? bummer bummer. And I completely forget to email
P who I promised to send my blog addy to on Monday fer cryin’ out loud.
Then the important stuff:
Mr.Horoscope - and the statscounter - who
are all these people who log on but never post a comment - who is in New York? Who is in Egypt? Norway? Malta? Do they knit? Do they read? Are they secretly storing porn on my blog and beaming it worldwide to geeky code snatchers plotting world distruction?
Then Knitters Review (dot com) and the daily blog reads - half of which get updated only infrequently, but I always check because these are people who have become important to me. I want to know how they are - even though, in a few cases I shall never meet them - never even email them since they don’t leave a path and I haven’t an email button on my blog either. I still care. Is this something like soap opera characters - they become metaphors for our inner selves, our hopes and desires? I don’t think so - they’re too real. Click, click click through the list. Of course, the grinding of the hard drive and the 3 minute wait for a page to load means that this classic multi-tasking
ENFP can also be writing her own blog post in Mcsft Wrd.
Crap. Blogger ate half my movie review! Dang it all.
8:00 a.m.
Still thinking about the
WW meeting last night - "Drink your Milk" they say and I decide to fix a strawberry smoothie for my breakfast. BD can have his usual oatmeal.
The skunk dogs want in this a.m. and they don’t smell all that bad. Interesting how a few decades in the country and skunk becomes one of the familiar mammalian odors, instead of something to flee or attack with tomato juice. Aww, sweet Jack, curled up on the mat by the front door. Hello Priss, Hello Socks. Yes. Come on. Lets’ go wake up daddy.
And Honey? Let’s just not watch a movie tonight. Lets’ read or oh yeah. OK. We can look over the taxes and we might as well go over the wills too. (secretly thinking ugh - what a horrible evening)
8:30 a.m.
Shower. Admire self in mirror. God I love this new hair cut. I feel so young. I feel so cute. I feel ... Moxie. Sexy. I feel
Special!9:15 a.m.
Such a sparkling day. The breeze is making the leaves flutter like all the green butterflies in the world at a convention. And around the last bend on the lane - is that a deer? Oh. No. It’s the butt end of that maple tree
BD cut up on Saturday, after it came down in a storm and blocked access to the tar road. Huh. Funny that golden color is the exact shade of a doe in June. Funny too, how the mind works. I know this is a deer crossing. I see the color. I think it’s a deer - even though it’s a round circle, not deer shaped at all.
Am I going to get it all done this week? Which
Important Thing am I going to forget? I’m worrying as I drive into town. No music on in the a.m. No audio books. I’m listening to the
Greek Drama: tragedy & comedy, a Modern Scholar release from Recorded Books. The professor is Peter Meineck. He looks like your next door neighbor, but he’s still got that British accent. He’s from New York University. I wonder of John Chute knew him. Chutes. The
Beans of Egypt Maine was written by a Chute. I didn’t like that book, though.
Sometimes I feel like my brain is an enormous trunk line of wires that has been severed and each copper thread inside is shooting out attention grabbing sparks.
9:40 a.m.
"Clark's Auto" “Well, the squeak was not there at all yesterday but as I drove up to the mailbox, this morning it sang out. I think it’s the back passenger wheel.” That’s what I tell Dean as he drives me back to work from his garage. I see, along the way, a new pizza restaurant is opening. Like I need more pizza. I ask Dean about that Chevelle - it looks like it’s a candidate for rust maker of the month but he says the guy who owns it thinks more of that car than he does of his wife. “I did some work on it this week. He’s going to have it painted next.” The paint on that car was peeling up like a tangerine - thick, pliant, like a skin coming off. Well, whoever he is, I hope he feels young and hopeful and ready to take ‘em on once he’s dumped $$$ into what is a very ugly car.
Dean Clark. I wonder if he knows his grandfather used to drive my mother-in-law to school in the school surry? Dan raised prize Blue Ticks that sold for $1000 in 1975. I bet he'd never heard of Westminster, or if he did he thought it was a church in England. "Did you ever go to a dance with him, Mom?" "Heavens no! He was a Clark!" But if he was as good looking as his grandson, with that lean dark capability I wonder ... And the great grandson comes to the library to check out car books. He's another Dan Clark. How cute is that? I suspect he has been in love with me for several years, but he's getting to be 10. I will lose ground to play stations and little league.
Dean used to be married to that Carreras girl. Olga Deshazo’s granddaughter. I remember when Ms. DeShazo wanted to borrow a genealogy book from the non-circulating section and a board member told her she could. And when Judy, my assistant, said she couldn’t the she complained to the member who ripped me apart. Funny, about small towns and privilege and how people think that the rules are for everyone else.
And how Newton DeShazo’s son and grandson got killed in freak accidents and the minister slid off the deep end and told them it was God’s punishment for them going to a Unitarian church. And how my boss was the lawyer for the vestry and needed the Roberts Rules of Order book to conduct the meeting when they broke the contract with the minister whose little boy, btw, was in my Cub Scout troop. Which all goes to prove the Keven Bacon rule. And aren’t you glad your last name isn’t Bacon, because imagine how the kids would tease you in 4th grade and call you Hog or HogFace or HogBrain and shout “Your bacon’s cooked, bozo!”
And now you see how the
ENFP brain works – from car brakes to Keven Bacon in six easy steps.
10:00 a.m.
Yes! I remember to call Jane. E-books? What the ___ are they really? Can we handle them in Dial-upsville? Hmm. Solinet is offering walking away titles - the books that always get stolen the moment you put them out. Resume books, GED books, SAT books. Okay. Yes. I see. Oh lawsee! They have that book on Legal Forms? An ordinary computer works too? Not only an MP3 player. Yes. I see. Good.
10:30 a.m.
Story hour. A mother is going to home school next year. Another mother is so excited. “I’m a teacher but I still think homeschool is best.”
I am always silent when I hear them talk about homeschool. Homeschoolers are our best customers. Homeschooled children are very well behaved and know just how to please adults. I would die before I homeschooled any child of mine. Bite lip.
Lord these little kids are so cute.
11:30 a.m.
L is back from vacation. Poor thing. Sick all week. Catch her up on the ThingsToDo List and put her to work buying gum-ball machine toys for the summer reading club.
Noon
Grab PSA to take to radio and walk outside to GoriousWeather and the feeling of Why In The World Do I Work When I Could Be Outside On A Day Like This?!?
Oh yeah. Lunch. Food. I have to eat. Meet
S at the courthouse. Courthouse gang all agog over my new haircut and I feel like a
Star. Cute me. Shake my head, Darling cute. There is nothing in the world like a successful change in hair to make you feel Special. We walk down Prince Street - gaze at Allec’s brick pile - the addition to his 17th century building. It might be attractive but it’s setting is awful; squished up against the old 1960s Snack Bar building on a turn of the (19th) century brick storefront street. Too much brick. Too much weight for the street. Too bad. I wish I had grass like his though. I wonder what it would really cost to put in turf ... just around the house, you know. Will I ever have that kind of money?
Lunch at the Riverbank Seafood Restaurant.
S&I have neither of us ever been there. I know there will be nothing remotely WW-ish for me to buy. I don’t want to go. I can’t think of anyplace else I’d like to go. Time is ticking by. Seafood salad - not too much mayo. In fact, exactly the right amount. Yes. Very good. I still won’t go back, except to buy fresh fish to cook at home, but it really was good seafood salad. Lawsee, am I ever going to get back to my WW goal? How I want to fit into those beautiful dresses from 2004. Sigh.
Stop in at the nail salon - can I be squeezed in somewhere this week? Yes, at 2. with the new gal who is Beth Dewey's daughter in law. I have to pass on the 23rd again. Can we switch the appointment? Thursday? Good. But really I just want to show off this cute haircut. It’s such a girlie girl place. Everyone chatters and flutters and beams at me and I feel even
More Special. So special I have to go by Brenda’s - since she is the one who cut this fantastic haircut. We hug. It’s laughing time. We’re so proud of ourselves. Me, because I made the decision. She, because she made the cuts.
And think about this - If someone walked into the library and said “Bess, I need you to outfit me with a new computer network access today. I need to be able to use my X4LC 53 FanTron DXL with your network” - I’d freak out. Even if it is something I
could do, I need a little more lead time than a walk-in request. And yet, how often do we do that to hairdressers? “I need a change” we say - and expect them to make us different and beautiful at a moment’s notice. Hmmm. I’m glad I gave her a couple of month’s time to think about it and talk about it with me and look at pictures with me. She was ready. She was confident. She was successful. I get to be cute. No - better than cute. I look younger!!
I am so utterly vain and trivial to care so durn much about a hair cut. OH lord - 4 pages and I’m only half-way through the day!
1:30
Hey! It’s
LD! Hugs. He’s busy. I’m busy. But a hug is so much fun.
And
K? Can you be here at 2 o’clock next week and keep the front desk? We need to hold a staff meeting and that’s the only day this month we can all be here. Thank you sweetheart. Yes. I’d like you to catalog the B&T books today.
2:30
Talk to K at the State Library. “E-books? Yes? Oh? Really! Hmm. Okay. I guess it’s a go for us then. I’ve got till the 15th. And btw, I loved the conference call seminar on Web Junction but they really need to figure out protocol so there aren’t those long silences punctuated by 3 people talking at once. Yes? Sure I’ll write a “review” of the process. You know I am always looking for an opportunity to talk.”
Call Van
Call Jack
Call Kay
What's this! No DayTimer? No schedule? Left at home? Lord! Can I move? Can I think? Decide? Schedule anything? Am I even real?
3:30
AT - from the wireless internet folk is here in person. Yippee! Next week? Don’t need to do any limb cutting?
Here are my 2 concerns about wi-fi:
A. Security - someone comes into my parking lot, logs onto our network and robs the bank’s e-funds while riding on Essex Public Library’s Internet access - are we liable?
B. Expense - will there be so much bandwidth sucked up in the middle of the night by drive by internet users my bandwidth costs will soar beyond what we can pay?
You can handle the wi-fi DHCP block from Warsaw? Interesting. Oh. I’ll need another switch. Okay - let’s do it. End of next week? Yes.”
Really, they ought to clone these
T men - they are all so handsome and so smart and so tender and they can even
sing. You could just go to the T-family catalog and order up a husband for any of your girlfriends. Am I developing a crush on a boy I used to read nursery stories to? Goof!
4:30
Hello Dean. It was the front wheels? Hmm. Well. I guess all my brakes are good to go now. Yes. I can drive you back. See you in a minute.
My, how nicely this car drives now.
5:16
Do I go to the gym or go home? Do I go to the gym or go home? Gym? Home? Home is the drive for listening to the Greek Drama.
5:55
That tree doesn’t look like a deer from this angle. How soft everything is. I am so tired. I’m so glad I have an easy dinner all planned. I really need to take a walk. I need to earn those activity points. I am hungry. I’ve shot the points budget already, what with having seafood salad sandwich for lunch.
6:15
Sweet potatoes and squash in the oven. Shoes on. Ouch. These gym shoes are just too short. Funny how they grow shorter as they grow older. My toes hurt. Walk Walk! Jack jumps Priss, Socks jumps Jack, Priss does an end run around them both. Daddy! Daddy! Hurry Up.
It’s a glorious evening for a walk. We talk about the day.
BD’s cover proofs for
Where None Before Hath Stood came via truck delivery today. He approves. The book will be published next week. Shipped within 10 days of that but then it’s the slow warehouse shuffle getting them from the west coast to Virginia. He hopes they’ll be ready by August. We talk, but every time Jack jumps out of the cornfield or the wheatfields, my eyes soften, my heart melts, I grow all gooey inside. How I love to watch dogs in the country. They’re so happy. They’re so strong and free and wild and yet not wild, because if you call, at least two of them will come running to you with such happy grins, such gleaming eyes, such love. Not Priss. She is the dog who walks alone and nobody can alter her from her chosen path. But she loves us too. She chooses to come to us so often you don’t mind that she won’t come when she’s called. We just never take her off the farm so we don’t have to worry about losing her.
It looks like a storm coming. Black rolling sky-mountains looming up out of the north west. Turn at the mile point. Stop at Jacob’s Gut for the dogs to cool off. Look! It’s
LD on his bike? Does he have Buster? Yes. A bit of territorial sniffing, a little appeasement and we’re all friends. But I know dinner is cooking While We Walk. Hugs to
LD, leave
BD talking with him and hustle on home.
7:00
Dinner while we watch A&E’s
Hatfield & McCoy. So obviously a television show. You can tell when the commercial breaks were because they always repeat the last thing said before a commercial immediately after the break. We laugh and scoff and make comments to the television while we eat.
8:00
Time to look over the taxes and the wills. "Is that all we made last year?" "Is that
all we made last year?" Hmmm. Well. There you have it. Sure had fun with it all. Now we’re laughing at lawyers and laughing at language and scratching all over the wills with red pens and pondering the question . . . but what would we do with this place if we had no heirs? It’s an unlikely event but just, what if? A scholarship fund in
BJS’s name? Oh. I love that idea. Okay, let’s have Scot put that in as well.
9:00
I am sooo sleepy. Goodnight sweetheart. I love you too.